"Do you believe in soulmates?"

Random blog post, but its a good question asked by Amy on her Twitter that I couldn't explain in a 140 character response that would fill up people's timelines. Well, thats the reason why I came back to the blog anyways, so here we go:


I said that I believe in soulmates, but to an extent.

A soul mate is defined as someone who was pretty much MADE for you to be with no matter what happens, because in the end, somehow, some way, you will be together.

I believe that if you find someone that treats you well, makes you happy, loves you for you, and its vice versa for them, then that person is your soul mate....

BUT, only if you die (or they die) with that person (or you).

I've noticed that teenagers and adults alike tend to find themselves in relationships where the above is mentioned, but still they find a way to just mess it all up, and when the going gets tough, they don't try to figure things out to make things better so that they last until death. And that doesn't include when only one party of the relationship tries to make things work and the other doesn't, because then that would mean that only one party felt the above feelings, as far as outer and inner happiness goes, which means that the one who DIDN'T feel the same isn't the other one's soul mate.

Like Tash said, we do tend to settle, and not look for more, but I think that if you're truly satisfied with someone, then you shouldn't have to look for more, or feel like you've settled at all. Actually, its way more complex than settling or not settling, and is really determined on how much the person searching for their "soul mate" is.

However, if you have something good (or even great) with someone, then you shouldn't want to just throw them to the side because you don't think that they're your soul mate. You should try to figure them out and all that other relationship junk in order to know.

Ok, so my thoughts have boggled left and right about this whole subject, and honestly, I don't even know what I was trying to explain anymore, simply because of the complexity of the idea and the definition of a "soul mate".

How about this? Just be with the person who makes you happy, and when things get rough, don't give up, because you don't want to lose all the happiness that you've had with that person over something thats most likely stupid. If the other person isn't willing to put in the effort, or if they did you wrong, then they weren't as happy with you as you were with them, and when its all over with that person, you have to keep it in your mind and in your heart that there is someone out there who will make you truly happy, and you will make them feel the same way.










But wait, isn't that a soulmate?









*winks* I hope you caught my drift.

My life is flashing right before my EYES!!!

Ok so earlier today, I was looking in my old lyric books from like... I don't know, some time period between 8th grade and 10th grade. Anyways, I came across one line that I wrote that I found rather insightful, and reading it again triggered all of these thoughts and it makes me wonder how at such a young age I could think of something like that.

Well the line said:

"They say before you die your life flashes before your eyes, and maybe this is just what we're seeing/

So when you die in this life your life will flash before your eyes again, I bet it just keeps repeating/"


I know right? What in the world was I on back then to think of such a mind boggling thought in rhyme form? Anyways, what if this life we live now is just a "flash" before we die? Like, in real REAL life, we're on our deathbed, or we're about to get hit by a car, or we have someone with a gun to our heads, or we're 2 seconds from drowning, or we're falling from a great height, and this is just what we're seeing before our inevitable death? The cool part is, when you get to your death in this "flash" you just see your life all over again right before you die. So it would just be a cycle of all the good and bad things you've done in your life, and now you can see it. Who knows? Maybe in these flashes, you'll be able to do things differently than you did the first time, but the thing is, you're not even sure of what you did yet because you're just the main character in a vision that prequels your actual death. Its a pretty crazy way of thinking about things, and it makes this "life" a little more interesting. Who knows? Maybe we do live forever...


and ever....










and ever....






and ever....








Catch my drift?

I don't need YOUR opinion on SELF-happiness.

Yes, yes indeed lol

Have you ever....

done as much as you possibly could and felt that you could do nothing else? I feel like I've put my heart and soul into showing something that nobody else seems to see. They say they understand, but I honestly don't think they do. Maybe I'm doing it wrong? Orrrrrr, maybe they just don't catch my ever so obvious and passionate drift?



Who knows?

I'll take this one back

Yep lol

Distancing Epiphanies

Doesn't it suck when you see someone or something that reminds you of how you used to be? Like, it doesn't even matter how far you've progressed or anything, its just when you are reminded of the past in a bad way. It sucks really. Today, I was reminded about that about 3 or 4 times. Now, a wise woman once told me that I shouldn't dwell on the past too much because I can't control it, but its still a natural action when you think about the past. Sometimes, it can even set me back a few steps because I realize that the things I thought I had accomplished, I never truly accomplished at all. Maybe I think too much, or maybe I just want more in life, and you can't be mad at me for that. Catch my drift?

If you love someone...

If you love someone, then unfortunately, sometimes even if you try your hardest, you can't be with them the way that you want to, and you may never be satisfied with anyone other than that person. However, if you REALLY love someone, you'll be more than satisfied simply for the fact that they're still in your life, somehow, some way. Just to know that they're out there happy should make you happy. To know that you can make them smile and laugh just the way you adored should make you happy. To know that you two are still good friends and haven't lost all contact should make you happy, and so on and so forth.




Sure, you may HATE IT that you're not/can't be together, but if you loved them like you say you do, then just having them in your life still should make you happy. Catch my drift?





EDIT: Btw, you CAN'T just stop loving someone. You either love them forever, or you never did.

Blue Balls, Blue Heart (Part Dos)

When a girl gets a guy aroused as if he's going to interact with her sexually, but he ends up "unsatisfied" as the result, he suffers from what is known as, "blue balls".



I feel like I have blue heart sometimes.



Use context clues to figure out what "blue heart" is, and you'll catch my drift.









Credit to Sili for helping with the term "blue heart" *winks* lmfao

Blue Balls, Blue Heart

You put the pieces of that title together and you'll catch my drift.










More on this later though.

Desperation (Poem...thingy lol)

Desperation leads to hesitation, and it also creates accelerated expectations that if not met the correct way, leads to degradation.

Degradation only creates a self-hatred that could've been prevented with self-realization and meditation.

This meditation gives you a better mentality to ease and help the pain with.

Instead of chasing hopeless goals with desperation, your mind and body could be in better places.

When setting places in your heart, not everyone makes the same reservations.

Because I know this information, I can no longer lower MY self-respect to the likes of begging and extra chasing and losing my sanity just because I'm never patient.

In a sense, I've made a dedication AGAINST my dedications, and sometimes it hurts, but shit, its better than depression ain't it?

So don't question where my faith is, cause its there, and if nobody can see it, I won't be lowered to desperation.

Catch my drift?